That's when I decided that I wasn't a crossdresser or a transvestite. Dressing up like a woman wasn't exciting for me. The exciting part wasn't the dressing, it was being to do it. I researched forced feminization and what I found didn't really apply to me. What I read was that guys enjoyed "forced" feminization because it let them do what they wanted to do without guilt. This wasn't me.
I realized that I craved the feeling of being in a dominant woman's control. That was the exciting part for me. Why feminization? Well think about it. If you like to present yourself as an alpha male and a woman degrades you and whips you, you can leave the dominatrix and go back to being an alpha male. If you leave the mistress and you're wearing panties and hose for the rest of the day, it's hard to feel very alpha.
It's like regular female domination with homework. Even when the girls weren't with me, if I was sitting at a vanity practicing my own makeup or walking around a dorm room mastering heels, I was never out of my mistresses' control, even when they were nowhere near me. It's a totally different mindset.
Hmm, interesting perspective, hon - I've always seen it as a combination of the two, and never really thought about separating them.
ReplyDeleteIt absolutely does provide a means of exploring your feminine side without guilt or shame. Since you're being forced against your will (wink, wink), you're free to enjoy it. I mean, it's not like you really, secretly, so desperately desired it. :)
Hand-in-hand with that, of course, does go the submission element. There's nothing more powerful than surrendering your masculinity to a woman, and allowing her to recreate you. I think that's why public humiliation and forced bisexuality so often accompany forced feminization, because it demonstrates the extent of her control to the world.
Like I said, I've never thought of it as purely a 'power' issue, but it makes a lot of sense. I'll have to keep that in mind next time I'm reading, to see how it impacts the way I see your stories.