This is one of the biggest questions that I get. It didn't start out all that much different than it did in the first Welcome to College books. I'm not a big guy and it's amazing what a handful of determined girls can do to a small guy. They physically forced a dress and makeup on me and tied me down. Then took pictures. The combination of wanting to be released and being terrified of the pictures getting out made me putty in their hands. I gladly agreed to let them give me a more proper makeover and posed for new pictures that made it look like I actually liked dressing up. Then they had me.
In the beginning, I was terrified of the pictures being released even as I cooperated with their more and more outrageous demands. Eventually, though I got to know the girls better. They could be mean and they were putting their own enjoyment over my situation, but I guess I knew they probably wouldn't release the pictures and ruin me. However, I started to get conflicted. Yeah, I started enjoying parts of this. They also pushed the envelope, which kept me from really totally enjoying it.
Then they got the really damaging goods on me. I started worrying about just how much control they had on me and worrying about stuff accidentally getting out. Overall, I did enjoy the experience and the further I get away from it, the more it becomes a source of so many sexual fantasies and memories. I think it's something I will want to pursue for the rest of my life. Dressing up on my own doesn't cut it though, I need a woman directing the action.
Was it all positive? No. I lost out on a lot of college experiences. Dating became an impossibility without just the right type of woman who doesn't come along very often, especially at 20 years old. I didn't have a lot of the social opportunities and I do kind of wish I had a cadre of college friends in my life. However, Lebron James didn't have a normal college experience either and he's doing OK.
Such a wonderful story, especially as much of it really happened!
ReplyDeleteI loved reading it. I only wish there were more details in places, such as when you had to wear Robyn's clothes, you didn't always mention the color(s) and styles. Knowing how you looked would make it that much more vivid.
I understand that if you mentioned everything that happened, the book would have been a million pages long. Still, I believe many of your fans would love revisiting some of the events, like in the blog posts you've done here. I vote for a highly detailed post about you forced to cheer in Robyn's uniform and dance in those outfits. You mentioned these in passing (pun intended), and it could be that those experiences plus modeling your own mother's wedding dress were critically important in breaking your masculinity?
Thanks so much for the kind words!
ReplyDeleteHow much outfit detail is definitely something I struggle with in all of my writing. I was an English major in college until I read Henry Jame spend 12 pages describing curtains and switched majors. I don't want to be that kind of writer, but I also know stories about feminization do call for descriptions of the feminizing clothing that are specific enough to allow the reader to visualize them.
The other problem is these things happened a decade ago or even more. I couldn't give you details on every outfit of Robyn's I wore. However, I do remember the cheerleading uniform and the wedding gown very well. I think I'll take you up on that suggestion this week.
Also, thanks for posting. Up until now, it's mostly just ben Jenn and I so I'm thrilled to have another reader brave enough to post :)
Looking at your pics I have to agree with Amanda and the girls. You made a truly beautiful coed. Everything about you is girlish
DeleteYou're very welcome! Yes I'm sure it would be hard to remember each outfit, especially after all this time. I sure would appreciate a more detailed telling of some of the more emasculating and humiliating events, as best as you can remember them. Also, have you stayed in touch with Robyn? Has your sister ever teased you about your days as her maid? Lastly, your photos on this blog make you look like a typical, if above average in looks coed. You really should've been a girl all along, and it's easy to see why you had trouble trying to pass as a male back then.
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